What do you gather from that statement? Without any further information you can make one of two very general assumptions – 1) that I’m generally happy with the course of my life or 2) that I am miserable and want something better. Either way we all have a few decisions to make from that moment forward; am I going to make this a great day and either be content with my life or am I going to wallow in self-pity and wish for, rather than work towards a better solution? Am I content with my life but just need a few tweaks here and there to make it perfect or am I going to complain about and find fault in everything and everyone for making my life miserable? There are a number of questions you can ask yourself throughout the course of the day but again, ultimately it is up to you how your day and on a broader scale, your life will be.
Today I had an eye exam. It’s been about four years since my last one. While I was sitting there in the optometrists office as he ran one test after another to determine the health of my eyes and whether or not my sight has worsened I had another one of those moments and a question popped into my head – I know that my eyesight has been poor since I was a kid, but what would happen if I completely lost my eyesight? I suddenly felt grateful for the limited vision that I do have, the technology that allows me the opportunity to see the world around me more clearly through corrective lenses and the blessing of being able to enjoy the wonders of both man and God.
I can hardly begin to understand what it might be like to live in the darkness every second of my life after having seen the beautiful things of the world. I would have to learn to communicate without the advantage of verbal cues, eye contact or body language. Absolutely everything would have to be described to me in clear, concise language. My whole life would be transformed and knowing myself and my lack of patience I can clearly see myself withdrawing from the world, beating myself up over how unjust life is and blaming everyone for losing a piece of me that is very integral to who I am.
As a writer, all of my senses are extremely invaluable when describing something to an audience through words and our eyesight is an intricate part of that process. Certainly there are very gifted writers in the world such as Helen Keller who in a sense successfully mastered the impairment to become a successful writer. But for me, the gift of sight is precious and priceless.
But what if you’re blind to your potential? What if you do wake up in the morning and decide every day that your life is not going to get any better and that you are destined to be a miserable, penniless, friendless dolt? What if I live every breathing day thinking, “Man, I wish I had so-and-so’s life.” What if you said to yourself, “Why does so-and-so have such a good life and mine sucks so bad?”
“But O, how bitter a thing it is to look into happiness through another man’s eyes.” (William Shakespeare)
For many years I lived with that same limited vision and that same lack of enlightenment, yearning for the things my eyes saw but not willing to see beyond that for the greater meaning I could bring to my life and to others. Coveting another man’s possessions, life, happiness can easily become the most palpable and overt method of butchering one’s own self-esteem and devaluing one’s sense of purpose and worth. Vision does not only pertain to your physical eyes.
I have friends and close family members who often lose sight of our goals and aspirations, particularly when you’re feeling like no one else cares or your self-esteem is at an all-time low. There are no easy solutions to clearing your vision when it has been impaired by life. In my life, freeing the debris from my sight is an ongoing struggle. But learning to see the positive in all things rather than immediately concentrating on the negative is a great first step towards banishing your inner demons, breaking the cycle of covetousness and preparing your mind for lucidity and a structured path towards fulfilling your objectives.
I am grateful for the eyes in my skull as well as the vision in my head. I hope that my physical eyes will always be clear and that they will always be the windows to my soul and the light for my heart.